Dear A
It’s very hard for me to write
this letter. To verbalize what it is I am feeling. But I feel that if I don’t
get it out, I might burst. I just don’t understand why you act different toward
me. Do you even notice? Do you feel the difference? Do you even notice that you
are avoiding me? That you are distant. Not around. Is it because of something I
did? I just don’t get it. Don’t you want to have a relationship with me? Why
shut me out? Do you feel happy? Coming home late and avoiding me? Making
Shabbos plans and not even including me? When is the last time you called me?
Texted me? Do you even notice? Do you know that sometimes I feel like an orphan?
All alone. No parents to turn to. That if something happened to me, they wouldn’t
even know. No relationship with any family. My siblings only call me when they
need something. And when I call them, they don’t have much to say. Why have I
always been there for you and for them and I can’t seem to get the same in
return. What happened to the backgammon games? Eating supper together? Shabbos
meals? The walks? The guitar lessons? We need each other. We have always been
there for each other. To bounce ideas on. Our days. I don’t understand what
happened? Are you mad at me? Do you feel happy in the way that things are?
Because I don’t. I have made effort a few times and you have pushed me away. You
are not approachable. You talk to everyone but me. And I am not ok with that. If
there’s something you want to say, then say it. This passive behavior is not
getting us anywhere. So here is me stepping out of myself. Reaching out to make
a change. I hope you take this letter to heart and make a change.
You know where to find me.
Your daughter,
R