I'm sorry that I didn't respond and have not been in contact. It means a lot to know you are thinking about me. It's hard for me. I know that's not an excuse. As life has never been easy. For me. Or for anyone. Especially you. But it's definitely on the difficult side now and I am holding on by a thread. Therefore, it makes being "open" and "keeping in touch" very difficult. 1. I have nothing good to share and I try to avoid complaining. 2. I feel as if I have disappointed you. You have always seen the good in me and truly feel that I have all this potential. And I have flat out failed. I haven't accomplished. So it becomes easier to just keep to myself. To not reach out. It's a cop out. But it's less threatening. I'm not sure if anything I am saying is making any sense. I look around this life. Mine. Those around me. And I see pain. Sadness. It's pretty hard for me to relate to any happiness at this point. And that is a sad thing to admit.
Thanks for always being there.
R
As someone who has played the part of 's' to my own 'r',
ReplyDeleteI've seen your pain and you know that - and I'm not only there for you in good times, you don't disappoint me despite what you think otherwise. I know you aren't the my personal r, but I would assume that s feels the same way.
Also deep down if you are t, or if t comes across this - I'm here for you, good and bad - you can't imagine how much support I get from you…
B
Thanks for the kind words B. It helps to hear....
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