Fine

I'm the only white person in the emergency room
I can't believe I'm here
I don't want to be here
I don't get sick
I am fine
I'm the queen of denial
I drove myself here
I'm all alone
Always all alone
Pain is not worth it
Reminder of what I don't have
The intake nurse is friends with my parents
She wonders why on earth I would drive myself here
My father is fixing a sink
My mother. Is my mother
She is across the street visiting my grandmother
I am here
All alone
Me
Alone
Diseased
Once again
Never free from the shackles
Of illness
I need to stop watching back to back episodes of Grey's anatomy
It's making me self diagnose
It's only a virus
I need an iv
That is all
No malfunction
No recurrence
I am fine
Fine